i dont know why ,but just thinking of going back to all those stressful days just makes me even depressed .I guess nobody just can understand how i feel deep inside.How I wish i could have someone to be my true friend ...........i just need someone to talk to !My heart just aches and i dont know it just feels numb again.That depressing feelings just comes again!

Dear Rachel,Tracy,and Siao Yi,

Today was really really agonising,sad,heart-breaking,teary,ARGH I just can't describe how I really felt today.Farewell was really teary and sad for me ,and I am sure mynah manics and everyone in Guides too.I didnt really think I will cry today for farewell , and it just seems that I love Rachel,Tracy,and Siao Yi more than I ever knew.It was just like we all sat down together ,and it was like ...Esther started crying,followed by min ,all overwhelmed by tears ,overwhelmed with those undescribable feelings they ever had for them.Tracy then had also break down and started tearing up.Soon after,I started crying too.And it lasted for the whole day.whenever I think that you all are gonna leave,I just cant help by cry again.I dont know ,its just that kind of sadness and feelings I have for Rachel,Tracy,and Siao Yi that made me cry uncontrollably,I just feel so sad , so so so I dont know,a feeling I can never describe ,I just dont want them to leave!My heart hurt and bled ,it tore and got stabbed ,it cried deep deep deep down inside.Although I had just spent a short six months with them,and didnt really talk much to them,its just that bond that made me hurt and cry so much.Tears just keep welling down whenever i think of them.Ever since I have been to GUIDES,you all have been really really awesome senoirs,leading me to where I am today.I have been really really quite cause I just was afraid to speak up.But from tis very very second onwards,I will speak up,and just shout out:"Rachel,Tracy,Siao Yi,MYNAH,I LOVE YOU!"I really regretted not speaking more to everyone in Mynah,especially Rachel,Tracy,AND Siao Yi.Its like you all are just like sisters to me.I jsut know that we ALL ,the mynah maniacs have this very very strong bond for one another,and I know that it wont just become weaker just because the sec 4s are gone.It would only get stronger and stronger,cause mo one can ever replace Rachel,Tracy,and Siao Yi in my heart.I will still keep in contact with them.the thought of them leaving really makes me well up with tears.sec 4s ,especially Rachel,Tracy,and siao yi,you all are really really nice senoirs ,teaching us and guiding us selflessly.You have made everything possible,and CAMP CAMELOT wouldn't even exist without you.I just wanna apologise for amking you all angry ,making you all do so much things for us.All the efforts,all the time and guiding,you given to us are as countless as can be.You all have put up so many wonderful performance for us,spending time to plan ,and rehearse everything.I know that it is not easy to do so , with so many exams ,and homework ,adding on with stress , it reaaly aint easy.You have given everyone such a wonderful time ,making camp so memorable,giving us memories we can never forget.I really liked the letters and gifts Rachel,Trcy,and Siao Yi gave me it was really really very nice.Simple as it seems ,it holds a lot of meaning for me.I really appreciate the effort, for it is the thought that counts.Rachel,Tracy and Siao Yi,the effort that you have put in,what you have done for Guides,for Mynah,can never be measured.Guides wouldn't ever be the same,for you are all unique in your own ways.
Rachel,Tracy,and Siao Yi I just want you to know that Mynah will always have you,deep deep down in its heart,and that no one can ever replace you in its heart.To me,you are the one and only,no one can ever replace you in my heart.I will ,do my best and give it my all,and LOVE GUIDES AND LOVE MYNAH like how all of you do,for i know this is one of your greatest wish,for this is the only way you would truly be happy .Do your best for your (A or O levels,i still cant differentiate:)),and always know that me ,mynah maniacs will always be there for you,with us rooting for you,i am sure there is nothing that is too difficult for you,and that you will do your best and do the mynah maniacs and yourself proud:)

ps.I dont really know if you all would feel this too mushy but i still wanna say this.

From : Shi Hui,your mynah junior :)